March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Monday, February 20, 2012

"Found Love in A Hopeless Place" literally!

Yes it has finally happened.......IM IN LOVE !!!!!!!!! I was at a point a few months ago where I felt like I was never going to find someone.  Every tear and every heart break that I have gone through has been worth it because it led me to him. He is everything I have ever dreamed of, sometimes I literally pinch myself to make sure I am not dreaming. He is kind, funny, caring, funny, thoughtful, and romantic.  Looking back  two years ago at this time I can't believe how much my life has changed. I finally realized what I deserve in life and in turn I am receiving everything I deserve and more. More than I could have ever dreamed of.  It is insane to get back what I put into my relationship. He makes me feel special and loved every single day. Everyday I think "I couldn't love him more than I do right now" then it happens he smiles at me or says something funny and right then I realize I am going to keep falling in love with him every minute of everyday for the rest of my life. I am so excited for the adventures that we have ahead of us!!!!!!!

 Reading my last post in November I still can't believe how hopeless I felt. I really didn't think I was ever going to find anyone. The craziest thing is I am experiencing a type of love that I have never experienced before.  Yes I have been in love before, but this time is different. He loves me back the way that I love him. Today I feel so blessed and so grateful for all of the amazing things I have in my life. There is literally nothing I need or want that I don't already have. I am the luckiest gal in the world!!!!! 


J.o.s.e.y said...

This whole post made me smile so big. :)

K-Diddle said...

Thanks Josey!!!!

How have you been ?


Awww this is so sweet Katey! I am so happy for you two, that you have found each other and love. I am glad to see your happiness and you are a lucky girl! It's an amazing feeling to know that your relationship isn't one sided - you both want each other which allows things to work as well as they do. Love you guys and I am so glad we have became friends. You are a doll Kat.

Katey Blanche said...

Thank you Emily :) I am so so so happy you are in my life !!!!!