Well lots has changed since my last post....I decided to take a chance and follow my heart and it turns out it was not the best decision for me to make.... I have been in many different types of relationships and I have gone through a lot in my life of dating but, I can honestly say this is the first time experiencing what I am right now. I took a chance and I was let down. I started falling in love with someone that doesn't feel the same way. It was so hard to say goodbye but, I know that I (and Lily) deserve so much more than just settling. It is hard because I really saw a future for us, and it is so hard just thinking how horribly off I was about our relationship. It is crazy how you think you know someone then all of sudden you feel like you have been spending all your time with a complete stranger. I have decided that dating sucks and I am going to focus all my time and energy on three things....Myself, Lily, and school! It is about time I take some time for myself. I have spent my whole life trying to make everyone else happy and I never take the time to do what makes me happy.
On a happier note I have found a new passion that I am so excited about....BAKING....I know crazy, everyone keeps asking why I want to learn how to bake. And I don't really have an answer for them all I know is I love doing it and it makes me smile. I have decided to have the theme for Lily's second birthday be a jungle/circus theme and I am going to make a bunch of cupcakes that look like elephants, monkies, clowns. and lions...I bought the book "Hello Cupcake" and I am having so much fun exploring different teniques for doing things. I have always been scared of cooking and baking because I was so worried I wasn't good. Right now in my life I say "who cares, I am having fun" Here is my first attempt at the elephant cupcakes. I am so excited I am planning it over a month in advance :) Besides the fact that she deserves the best birthday any two year old has ever had !