Saturday, October 9, 2010
I woke up today and picked up a book. I don't remember the last time I did that. I read for about four hours today, and without even realizing it I was sitting in my room, on my bed, ALONE, and I was okay with it just being me. For those who know me know that the last thing I like is to be alone. I will go to any length to not be alone. I have always known this about myself. I have jumped from relationship to relationship. Friends, boyfriends, co-workers. Shitty as it is sometimes this new path I am taking in my life is forcing me to get to know who I am. When I think about "WHO I AM " I realize I have no f'n idea! All I want to do today is look at pictures, sit at my computer, listen to music and avoid the list of things I HAVE to get done today. I have been slacking on reading my "Just For Today" and today when I read what today's meditation is I knew it exactly what I needed to read. For once in my life I am going to make my house in order!