just...for...today...

March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Thursday, August 12, 2010

~kendall~

thinking...hoping...praying

i borrowed your hand tonight

i placed your palm in mine

i wrapped my other hand around your wrist

to see if i could find

something deep down inside me

hope i have lost along the way

unable to reach it

searching every single day

i borrowed your hand tonight

thinking she might see my hand in yours

hoping she could guide me

praying she knows what is right

my hands are lost inside yours

until she grabs on tight

she wraps her hands around us

and suddenly there is light

katey blanche kendall

8.12.2010

4 comments:

Allison said...: Could you share a little more about your addiction? Your story? wWhat has lead you to seek help now?

Allison :); August 12, 2010 at 8:43 PM
Jessie said...: Katey, your writing is beautiful. It seems that it is theraputic to you to write, keep it up! I enjoy reading it very much. Thank you for opening your heart and sharing.; August 13, 2010 at 2:00 PM
Andrew and Maren said...: seriously, while reading this i cried. i am so glad you are finding strength through writing. i am praying for you. good luck!; August 18, 2010 at 8:46 PM
Jennifer J Kendall said...: Katey your recovery has been an example to me each and every day. I am honored to be your witness.

Love,

Mom :); August 25, 2010 at 12:37 AM