just...for...today...

March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Thursday, April 22, 2010

OVER-WHELMED....

I don't know what it is, is it because Lils is almost one? Is it because I feel like a failure as a mother because I feel like I can't even support my own daughter. Is it because I am more than tired of feeling like crap physically and mentally?

I don't know but, today, today is hard.....I am trying so so hard to look on the bright side and think about EVERYTHING that I am grateful for...

Family
Lily
Friends
Work
Co-workers
Family
LILY!
Ryan
Gaylin
Boyd
Lily's Health
My MOM
SISTERS
GRANDMA
JAMES
DAD

I could go on for hours....So why do I feel this way....? When I don't have her the only thing that gets me through the day is watching videos of her...Like this one....Breakfast at gwamma and gwampas....