March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

My Little Sunshine!!!

I know I talk a lot of being an aunt and how much it has changed my life but, guess what? I could talk about Kendall and my little PaxE till my face turned blue or purple which ever you prefer. I NEVER EVER imagined it being this much fun...Kendall and Paxton bring so much happiness to my life. And I literally spend every minute I possible can with them. Thanks Kands, Regs, Kristi, and J for making this all possible :)

This video was taken last week when Kristi was sick in the hospital with a horrible kidney infection. Dad, Kands, and I thought we would let her run around for a while hoping it would tire her out...But of course it didn't it made her more hyper... She spun around and around for two straight hours...And it was so funny when she would try to walk after..It was most definitely one of the best hours I have had in a good minute.. I laughed so hard I cried..(literally)

And here is one of my little Smiley Guy taken at the cabin..Sorry for the weird angle Smellian was holding the camera the wrong way... :) This was taken over Thanksgiving and he has grown so much since then but I just love his smile and I could look at it all day long !

1 comment:

The Days said...

Super cute! Love the one of Kendall spinning around and Pax is so dang cute! You are such a cute Auntie!