just...for...today...

March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

25 Weeks!!!!!

YES.....!!!!!! That is really all I have to say. The last few weeks have been so amazing. Don't get me wrong I have my days but things are getting so much better. I can eat and keep my food down. And it is a luxury I will never take for granted again. I do have a few pregnancy things going on like backache and I get headaches almost everyday but I would take this ANYDAY over what I was feeling the first four or five months.

And it might have a lot to do with the fact that my growing belly gives me the comfort that there really is a baby growing inside me. The comfort that all everything I have been going through is going to bring me a little angel that I get to hold and kiss and fall in love with every single day.. Of course I knew it before but being able to see it definitly makes things seem more real. She is most active late at night and when I first wake up. Laying in bed and watching my belly move and twitch has become the best parts of my day. It's just me and her and I can't wait until it's just me and her and I will be holding her and looking at her beautiful face. Needless to say I have never been so excited and anxious about anything in my entire life!!!!

And my growing belly....Pictures taken by Kindra Kendall

4 comments:

ASRussell said...: You look radiant....very beautiful! I am very excited for you! We are praying that everything goes well for you and your sweet little girl!; January 21, 2009 at 11:47 AM
KrisFlower said...: Look at your cute belly!!! You look amazing and I'm so happy for you, Ry and baby girl Lilly.

love you lots
Kristi; January 21, 2009 at 1:43 PM
The Days said...: You look great! You baby girl is going to be here before you know it! Rest up now!; January 25, 2009 at 2:36 PM
Jennifer J Kendall said...: Katey thank you for all you do for us. You are a very special person, I am so lucky to call my daughter. I love you.

Love,

Mom :); February 1, 2009 at 5:25 PM