March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Obsessed Auntie

Yes I am very aware that I am extremely obsessed with my niece and my nephew. To be completely honest though they are to blame for a big chunk of my  happiness every single day, so why shouldn't I be.  When I am in the presence of these two beautiful angels I forget about everything that causes me stress. I forget about the bills I have to pay. The things I am supposed to do. The money I wish I had.  Having them, having this relief is sometimes the only thing that helps me get by. 
Not only have they brought me so much happiness they have shown me a completely different side of both of my sisters. I am watching them become beautiful, caring, and compassionate mothers and I am so proud to be apart of this family.  Needless to say I'm obsessed and I'm damn proud!!!!!
( sorry to those who may not enjoy this obession but this is where I get to talk about the things that make me happy and more often then not. It's these little tikes !)

I was able to spend a few hours with Kands and Pax on Saturday before Kendall's birthday party. I held him while he slept and I think I was holding my phone for at least twenty minutes trying to capture some of the funny faces he pulls. I definitely got a few.....

yes everyone he sleeps with one eye open

a little surprised when he woke up and he saw aunt Kate not mommy

but as you can see not at all disappointed :)

And my baby Kendall....Oh do I love her so so much!!!!! I can't believe she just turned two!

Just like her momma 


kindra said...

Atlas and i are laying in bed and when she saw the picture of Paxton she said " oh he is sooooo cute. Don't you think he is cute?" And i said " of course i do!" How is life? How is my little prince or princess doing? I think prince. I am just going to put that out there...Well i sure do love you, i sure do miss you. Love always, aunty Kin

KrisFlower said...

I love the photo of kendall with the camera...I'm hoping to post today, so take a look later....

love ya

The Days said...

Cute pics! You are such a great Aunt!