just...for...today...

March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Thursday, September 18, 2008

Missing You!!!!

Its only been six days since you have been gone and it seems like its been a lifetime. I never dreamed in a million years I would miss you so badly. I knew that I would miss you, but I was so happy for you that I didn't realize how hard this would be. I wake up at least five times a night and reach over to grab your arm that isn't there. During the night when I wake up and I reach over and touch you, you automatically turn towards me and hold me. I'm pretty sure you don't even wake up you just do it.

Even though we are unable to spend much time together during the week, because we have opposite work schedules, it feels a lot different now that your gone. Our time together at night and in the mornings have always been so special to me. It's the time we get to just be us, and laugh and goof around. It's like nothing else in this world matters when it's just me and you. I'm sorry for all my crazy antics lately, I know I'm emotional and I'm sorry. Thank you for just being her for me and reassuring me that everything is going to be okay. I know it will but it's so nice to hear you say it. It gives me comfort when I am having one of my momments.

I am so happy that you are having so much fun with your sister and nieces. Thank you for calling me this morning. I think you read my mind because I really needed to talk to you. I can't wait to see you in just three short days!!!! Have fun at the beach. I love you so so much and so so much more!!!!!!!