just...for...today...

March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Bear Lake

I had a blast the night we went to Bear Lake for Loni's wedding. Kristi, Elian, RJ, and Fasha did a wonderful job capturing all the highlights of the wedding, and I had lots of fun doing Loni's makeup for her. Then we all had fun drinking beer and walking to the lake. Well we it was a struggle but we finally made it there. I have not laughed that hard in a really long time. I didn't feel very good the next day ( I actually threw up on the drive home) but it was worth it. That will be my last drunken night for a long long time. And I couldn't be happier about this night being my last for a while. It was loads of fun!!!!!

Here are some pics from the wedding.....