just...for...today...

March 28, 2012

Facing feelings

Page 90

"We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic."

Basic Text, p. 30

While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren't sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

Just for Today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Happy Anniversary Babe!!!!!

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Today Ryan and I  have been together for five months. We wanted to celebrate and do something fun so we decided its our fake six month anniversary. It's our relationship so we can do what ever we want. I can't believe I have spent almost everyday for five months with this kid and he still won't let me fight with him. Trust me I have tried, I have tried hard and nope he won't give in. He has changed my life in so many ways. He has forever changed my confidence in myself and my belief that I deserve everything I want out of this life. Everyone that knows me knows two things about me:

1. I wake up every morning way to happy (as my sisters would put it)
2. I love candy!!!! I carry it on me at times...In case of an emergency

Saying this I think everyone will understand why I just can't get enough of him. I wake up every morning to the biggest smile on the cutest face ever. The mornings are my favorite part of the day because I wake up and get to share the most amazing feeling with someone who feels the same way I do. It is the greatest gift I have ever been given. And for the second reason if you know Ryan you know he is a walking convenient store. 

I just want to say thanks to my friends and family who had to deal with me and my craziness in my past relationships. You all can give Ryan a big kiss and hug because he makes me happier than I ever imagined I could ever be. And now you don't have to deal with all the drama I used to carry around. I love you Ry and thank you for always knowing how to make me smile no matter how stubborn I am being. (Sometimes I just want to be mad, but he makes it pretty impossible)  I can't wait for all the amazing things we have to look forward to together!!!!!



4 comments:

KrisFlower said...

Kate...
You deserve only the best...Ryan is awesome and I'm so happy that you are happy and in love. I love you lots and lots...keep up the blogin'...

love your sis

Kendalls Media said...

I love you so much! I am so happy you have a good man to love you. FINALLY!

P.S. You work for the NUMBER ONE BLOGGER IN THE UNIVERSE PLEASE HAVE HER TEACH YOU YOU NEED TO UPDATE YOUR BLOG TO KEEP THE READERS!!!

MOM:)

Kendalls Media said...

I love you so much! I am so happy you have a good man to love you. FINALLY!

P.S. You work for the NUMBER ONE BLOGGER IN THE UNIVERSE PLEASE HAVE HER TEACH YOU YOU NEED TO UPDATE YOUR BLOG TO KEEP THE READERS!!!

MOM:)

triple J said...

I found you!